future.
i get asked a lot what i plan on doing with my makeup career. do i want to go to hollywood? do celebrities? or magazines? everyone is always shocked to know that even though i’m passionate about makeup artistry, that the beauty industry is not exactly how i see my future. my dream job is to be a stay at home mom, my favorite response to that is, “won’t you get bored.” apparently peoples perceptions of a stay at home mom are very narrow. no i will not be staying at home watching my stories and eating bonbons.
i think growing up in a single parent household, makes me want to give to my children what i didn’t have. my dad did an amazing job to be there for every awards ceremony that he could make when he wasn’t working, and every play and performance that i was in(and there was a lot!) he never wanted my brother and i to be latchkey kids, he tried to give us structure and be present. but being a single parent that works full time, there is still a lot missed and times when i felt left raising myself and trying to figure out how to be a woman with no mom around. i wanna be a kick ass mom and sacrifice everything so that my future children will grow up and not go through half the things i had to. looking back my childhood went by so quick, and i don’t want them to have to grow up any faster than they have to. i realized something months ago, that my dad went through the things he went through so i wouldn’t, and i went through the things i did so i could make the path better for future generations in my family. i’m paving a way with the decisions i make.
i took child development and in it learned that a childs character and what they think of themselves and others is formed by the age 7. so i want to make sure that i am there so they only think lovely things of themselves and others.
i know this is a random and probably disorganized ramble. but i have a lot of thoughts in my head and just wanted to express them. the disorganized thoughts has to do with the fact that i’m exhausted, so my mind keeps jumping from place to place. so please excuse that.
o and as a disclaimer: i don’t have children, and am nowhere near ready. but i get asked that question on the daily, so i wanted to ramble about it.
